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03: seem to be shutting down

2019-03-03 09:14

Tags: fw depression suicide food clothes discomfort Location: hell

i can't think or move much today. i'm so cold i just want to go back to bed.

we're basically out of things i'll eat, and i have no energy to go to town to rectify that.

i can't seem to do anything useful or right today, and i feel like a continual nuisance.

i keep thinking about suicide today, and it makes me so much more tired. i want to cry and don't have the energy or moisture.

i am so cold i have everything on, and it's still barely helping. it's so many layers that moving around is exhausting.

dad watches toshi sleep under a blanket

dad watches toshi sleep under a blanket

clover tries to stay warm and fails

clover tries to stay warm and fails

09:51

Tags: hygiene tired discomfort health fm

Still freezing. Had a sink bath to try and ease the discomfort.

i may be a bit flare-y judging by the heartburn and indigestion i had last night while trying to sleep. it was abominable, and quite painful. i wish i knew definitively what caused it... Probably the orzo in the chicken soup... sigh.

downed trees litter the yard

downed trees litter the yard

turkeys eat seed i put out for them without any coaxing

turkeys eat seed i put out for them without any coaxing

15:30

Tags: salvation power electricity

Oh gosh, a crew is here already. Dad said they're from Tillamook, which is a bit of a drive!

They had at least one big service rig, and a cute little four-tracked cat thing. :) I'll try to get a pic if I can. The puzzle mom and I were doing is making me so tired.

snowcat zipping down the road

a snowcat zipping down the road

a lineperson prepares to climb our tilted pole

a lineperson prepares to climb our tilted pole

a lineperson works on our tilted pole

a lineperson works on our tilted pole

16:25

They have one line back up on our pole, and the worker is still trying to get our insulators right. They got badly tweaked.

This is all just triage to get things working again, presumably. May be tonight if we're super lucky, tomorrow seems more likely given it'll be dark soon.

18:03

Tags: family cute dog

Mom and dad are in the garden throwing snow for the dog to chase. Cutest thing I've seen in days.

20:55

Tags: happy sleepy power electricity

Ha. I was just twisting into a comfy position in bed when the power came on.





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