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10: Trans: Oddly painful emotional blow from therapist

2018-01-10 11:39

Tags: doctors passing trans

It happened a month ago, but I'm still thinking about something my therapist said when I told her about the first boy to flirt with me while I was on HRT.

Her immediate response was to "break it to me" that he was "very likely a chaser".

Now, perhaps I'm a little sensitive about my appearance, I don't know many trans women who aren't, but seriously: why immediately say that? You insulted both of us in one fell swoop, despite hearing only a fraction of the interactions we had, by assuming his intent had maliciousness behind it.

I don't know why this is driving me crazy, because obviously I'm not in any fit state to date. I mean, I can barely take care of myself at the moment. But that immediate blow to my vanity seemed very uncalled-for and a bit cruel.

I know I personally have a bias against men due to how I've been treated by them thus far in my life, so I can only suspect something similar is going on with her. The difference seems to be that I am willing to give the benefit of the doubt to folks before assuming anything like that about them from one interaction.

Oh well, yet another thing plaguing my already over-saturated and always-weary mind. Just what I need!

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